It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.
A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening.
Your mother, your father, your grandparents: they all look at you like you’re some prized jewel and they tell you over and over again just how lucky you are to be young and have your whole life ahead of you. “Getting old ain’t for sissies,” your father tells you wearily.
You wish they’d stop saying these things to you because all it does is fill you with guilt and panic. All it does is remind you of how much you’re not taking advantage of your youth.
You want to kiss all kinds of different people, you want to wake up in a stranger’s bed maybe once or twice just to see if it feels good to feel nothing, you want to have a group of friends that feels like a tribe, a bonafide family. You want to go from one place to the next constantly and have your weekends feel like one long epic day. You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn’t get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious, and more willing. Because if you’re closed off now, you can only imagine what you’ll be like later.
Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage.
Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything.
I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it.
You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of shit doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it.
Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today?
We shall see.
Following their unprecedented success with the track ‘Flute’, New World Sound is taking Australia by storm. The brothers, Tyrone James Taylor and Jesse Taylor have been conquering city to city with their new found fame. Vibe Magazine recently placed them in the ‘30 DJs to watch in 2014’ list, and we agree attention should definitely be given for this pair. The duo have already gained a reputation for dropping fast paced big room sounds coupled with electro that is sure to make a great night when they are at the helm.
This is a special mix made by them just for us.
1. New World Sound & Thomas Newson - Flute (Uberjak’d Remix)
2. JDG - Indigo
3. MAKJ & Henry Fong - Encore
4. Deorro - Dechorro
5. Avicii - You Make Me (New World Sound Remix)
6. Lush & Simon - Adrenaline vs Pendulum - The Island (New World Sound Bootleg)
7. Kanye West - All of the Lights ft Rihanna (Joel Fletcher Bootleg)
8. Joel Fletcher & Uberjak’d - Jetfuel
9. Tonite Only - Fuck Tomorrow (SCNDL Remix)
10. Blasterjaxx - Snake
11. Thomas Newson vs Fedde Le Grand & Nicky Romero - Pallaroid Sparks (New World Sound Bootleg)
12. Mako - Beam (Dannic Mix)
13. Showtek - We Like to Party
14. Vinai vs Hardwell - Losing My Hands Up! (Chardy Mash)
15. Uberjak’d - Jetfuel
16. New World Sound - Bounce
17. New World Sound & Thomas Newson - Flute
Dear 2014, if you have no intention of getting better, feel free to end now. Or just keep it comin. I’d love to see what more of your shit I can fight through.
Sincerely pissed off
"If I gave you pretty enough words.
Could you paint a picture of us that works.
An emphasis on function rather than design.
Aren’t you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
And blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while…”
Angry. Hurt. Confused. Upset.
Finding some relief in my guilty pleasure.
Judge me. Ha.